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Saturday, February 11, 2006
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Slept for 3 hrs - awoken by myself - wif puffy eyes, I'm having mixed feelin'. Why do I hv to make decisions in life? I dunno as I question myself all over again. Was it my choice to do so? The lost feeling had been lingering over me for some time now. I suddenly feel I've aged alot what with thinking so much about my life. Should I bury myself with all the troubles? I've heard many saying choose to be with the one that loves u more than u love. I've always preferred the other way around - to be the giver instead of the taker - no matter how much hard work to be put in and how miserable it can turn out to be. I pursued for the love of my life - deep down with no regrets, no grumbles - hoping one day we can grow our hair white together. But time is really cruel. I have to head somewhere in life. One day, my love told me I'm not the one. I'm at a loss for words - what can I do. I flipped thru memories - from Day 1 - and through the passing years. There were difficult times - I continued on to strive for the best. I put myself thru the distance test. I thought that wouldl be the best survival test of love. I returned home with my love still intact. But things somehow changed. My love made me grew independent w/o relying on him too much. So I learned to accept what came along. I felt this tinge of hurt when my love told me he needed to get a ring as a bday gift for a friend of his - she requested from him as a token of their friendship. It hit me hard - why the first ring he was ever going to get was not for me. The significance of a ring is sacred - I believe so. I went to get the gift instead to save him the trouble. He told me it was just a gift without feelings - one day, he will get one for me with his sincerity. I waited - it never happened.
» ÞŨЯρ|Эχ purred aт 7:23 AM
Gheez.. it really happened?
Guess the debate didn't change your mind still..
share the same sentiment to you. any joker will know the significance of a ring. The person who asked for it should have known it's not to be asked from a friend. The person who gave the ring shouldn't have acceded to the request neither.
in any case.. I just hope you stay happy.
I'm not a good person or saint, but i hope those who made you unhappy realise that their decisions and thoughts actually have great negative consequences on you, which they think it may be insignificant!
Stay strong. Anytime u can buzz me.