Red Roses
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I received this dozen red roses on V Day. When I got home, it was lying beautifully on my little twin star bed. J had kept his "promise" of a year ago. Remembering last year, it went flowerless - not that I mind not having flowers. Last year, was told no celebrations but still had a good dinner together. I did feel a little unhappy when he went all over the places, just to help a friend to get something on his behalf. It did not bother me for long as I just brushed it aside. Cos this is J – helping his friends and making others happy, I am happy too. Maybe I should have been more sensitive to myself and let it out. But love is selfless – I thought I’d achieved that. Not quite so to others, who thinks I’m naive & blind, and why can’t I think of myself more. *shrug*This week feel extremely long to me – 5 working days. I’d not worked that long a week for the past 3 weeks – due to holis and falling sick twice. Yesterday, was REAL busy at work. Attended meeting, absorbed knowledge transfer and finished up that script. Mann… I am so ‘rusty’. It is simple but yet I overlooked lots of things. Anyway, I like to learn by mistakes - it will make me “grow”. I feel tired but yet satisfied and happy. Had not felt this way for a looooong time. Since Nov 04, I fell into pieces - dejected, grumbled too much, drag my feet to work almost everyday, hated those stuff I did. It was my lowest point of my career life as I really felt hopeless & useless. Am I demanding too much? I did not "matured" to my capricorn self. In fact, I had lost it long time ago. I'm really looking forward for the knowledge training in March. I hoped I will regain my self confidence slowly. *shrug*
Pal just asked me if I’m interested in fortune telling using tarot cards. It went quite accurately for her. I dun like fortune to be told as I always believe your life is in your own hands. It will bother me somehow with whatever being told, so I choose not to listen. Is this stubbornness? Pal just commented – it only can tells 1 year fortune & “its a good way to reflect urself lor” *shrug*
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2 Comments:
on 11:21 AM,
sÞ¡ηηєє said…on 11:47 AM,
greeniepunk said…
work hard and play hard :P