My latest craze is on the korean drama show (i luv sams00n) on TV. I heard about it months ago but I nv attempt to go search for the vcd (just liked DCJ)...until the channel started showing it lately. Somehow I finished the series in 2 days :) - well, the show is interesting in the sense it reflects how TIME works it way in a relationship. And of cos, the male lead is cute and the female lead is comical and adorable. And from the show, it reminds me of things i.e. luv relation. Having been in short-termed, LONG-termed rships and my new-found love rship - time does play an important factor for THINGS to happen. I rem asked my then-not-my-guy-yet, M, on how he handled when he is reminded of old loves - he told me, sometimes it just fly out of your heart - but just take it back and locked it n stuff it in the 'cold palace' within the heart. Initially I didn't quite really get it - so is it heart over mind, or mind over heart.
My 1st love was short but deadly - cos it’s something new, unexperiences and lost. It took me 6 months to wake up one day to realise I'd to move on. But it did not get easy when this guy became my classmate and he became a total stranger to me when we only said HI & BYES and mixing with that same clique. Part of me did think if we could rekindle it - but it din eventually as there were old scars - so to really get over was when we don't get to see him anymore when we graduated – total time taken about 2 years. The last I know about him is he had got married – and I did saw him once with his wife when I was with J.
One of the most difficult rship was with J – started out real tough as there was some differences. I rem I made the first move and got rejected and I cried liked hell due to the fact he thought he wasn’t worthy for me. Very anguish as I can’t really figure out his mentality. Geminis – hard nut to crack. Took us about almost a year when we finally started our slow relation. Maybe it was a hard beginning for us to get together, I treasured it dearly and so did he. Time had created many memories – sad & happy – hard to forget. But TIME had also made us go into different path today. J told me he was packing his drawers over the weekend and came across those old gifts and cards from me. Coincidentally, I was also packing some stuff over the wkend and came across his stuff – it did partly contribute to my moodiness. I shared with J about my depressed mood on why life is such a hard process. Both of us understand how sad it is when looking at the old stuff and the person is no longer at your side. But I’m glad we talked it out openly as we accepted that we are moving on our own. Part of me silently prays that he will meet his good future soon.
From the Samsoon drama – the male lead told his old love that he will not forget her – their old memories will be cemented and buried in his heart. He also said his new love will understand him. With that conversation, it showed me some light about M – his understanding character. M had never stopped me when I accidentally talked about J (well, it was a LONG rship – so tends to occur). M came along and make me realised I can have a different life and helped me move on. And now, I realised how silly I was – well, I should not give up on building our future or making M do the work alone – it’s OUR WORLD. 사랑해요.
