Time may had passed, but NiKi is still remembered. As his ashes laid at rest with me, I missed his presence. It had been 6 months. Every 23rd had become so difficult for me to passed. Even on my birthday, I feel tt tinge of sadness within me. About a year ago, NiKi was brought to the vet for the 1st time. It was then discovered about his illness and how we were going to help him to cope with it. A year later, he had gone. Now, we are coping other things at home.

Life revolving us has started to change. As my unexpected earlier arrival of my lil' bb nephew, every1 is thrilled but with bits of worries. My sis had been staying very strong and not breaking down. She controlled herself when she saw my mum went teary seeing the lil' one being poked by the many needles. I was forewarned by MiN about this. I wasn't allowed to visit him thou I managed to caught a glimpsed of my nephew. I can feel those emotions stirring inside me. As I stood outside the neonatal unit looking in, hearing the other bbs cries and seeing their little fragile self - I prayed they can grow up fast.