every minute, every second counts alot - especially for someone who is waiting for times up. you ponder your life, wonder what's going on and what's next. will u wake up to see your loved ones or you are out elsewhere and probably be able to meet those that had left long ago. My uncle is not doing well but he still able to talk to us. Not too sure if he knows what's going on. As I stand outside the zone, I hope I can hold on as much as I could. Trying to be v strong now is v impt as I know I need to be the pillar of strength for all of them. I hv to play a role of balancing everyone thoughts. As mum said, do what best we can do to provide. And I feel time is not on our side - I feel helpless and as much choked inside. But I shall do my role well.

Not sure what comes into me, it been a v long time and I decided to pay a blog visit. Nothing is new - contridicting to her self preeching of non faking and being truthful - it still disgust me. well it's her life and I respect every human life. Humans are meant to lie to themselves, so do I. I still dislike her unnecessary intervention and impact of my previous years of my life - this can't be removed. what is meant to be, is meant to be.

My tots had been stirring. Standing at the same juncture, I thinking of my next career move. I have to move on again, in search for a new milestone. Or probably I can lie to myself, I hv a million and live in the fantasy world. Mel said we may moved on to stay in another country. I agree. The living conditions now is getting less affordable with the rapid raising cost of everything. We can never live comfortably. Nah, we had been thrown into the sea - so swim on to the shore - by ourselves!