...niki...
Saturday, July 29, 2006
I'd made plans to go somewhere today...planned one month ago...almost? It was all sunny and I prepared lunch for M and me. Jus as I finished my cooking, sky dark dark - and it started to rain at 1:30...from a small drizzle to a real heavy rain. Guess, niki is hungry le. I finished my food, and prepared his stuff. I tink he wants us to be home, to accompany his soul. So all plans are cancel. And i napped as the rain continue to be around.J had advised me not to put any more niki's pic on my MSN...it will make me missed him more. Yes I admit, the pictures of niki brings alot of memories back, and i frequently thinks about what he does around the house. I missed him very much. Thou it's unbearable the thoughts of not having him anymore, I will still put up his pic - cos he had once bring me joy and had allowed me to learn how to care and I understand dogs better. He's irreplaceable in my mind. Right pic taken the day before he was gone, consider it the best I'd taken of him. Below, a funny pic of niki's butt taken by M quite long ago...look like chicken backside served on the table :)
:: wag wag tail ::
Thanks to spinnee introduction to this webby and I managed to post an orb ad... say i'm crazy lor, that's all I can do...
NiKi is Home
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
These 2 days, can't really work - was just surfing the web, and finally found a breed that niki could be. I know he's a mixed breed but never find out what it is. So now abit too late ya - he's not a pure mini pinscher - due to the fact his legs r so skinny, his pointy ears and he slightly taller, chest build not as sturdy. So finally found his cross...American Rat Terrier....I can related his face, ears, and abit his leg...he's a Rat-A-Pin aka American Rat Pinscher...
Niki has returned home today - in ashes. When I reached the clinic, I jst looked around and thinking the last walk he took around the clinic. I can feel him all around. When the nurse passed me a small urn, reality really sets in. My dearest niki had gone. Really gone. I chanted to tell him we are going home. It was an unfamiliar route, I clinged on it tightly, hoped he had followed me closely.
Finally he is back home. My mind is sort of at ease. I'd not seen what inside the urn, as it is oredi taped when I received it. Umm...it was abit of thinking on where to put him up. For now, had put him in my glass shelve with toys but my sis kinda disagree stating it's liked locking him up. Will tink again to relocate him - a spot that he liked....
In my back of my mind, I was hoping that I'd given him the last try to hope he can recover. He could had lived but still, he would have been taken away by his heart condition - just a matter of time. But this is too fast :(
My Angel NiKi
Monday, July 24, 2006
Niki has turned into lovely angel. Saying goodbye is never easy but has to be done. These two days he suffered from fits. He only had short term good walk and the next he will just collapsed. He let out a cry when he had his fits. I can no longer help to ease him, so the most I can give is to not let him suffer. He no longer suffers now. He will always have a place in my heart.
Goodbye NiKi, Goodbye. Jie Jie will always keep you in mind.
2 slow years
Thursday, July 20, 2006
I'm 2 years old tomorrow (with my rice bowl provider).
Plse bring out a cake and let me blow some candle! Oh yea, some1 said that at work..wahaha.
Haa... let me eat my own one first.. *ARrrRRRR....*
Over these 2 years, most of the time, I feel things are growing slowly. Liked a slow death on my first position. Haa.. I dunno why things just turn up and down. And what's more this week feel especially S L O W, I bet must be all the SAD things happening - everything seems to go S L O W - and yet it seems i did alot of things for work. Finally application get to be deployed. It was On Hold, No Hold, Go Ahead...Haiz..Then did some knowledge sharing this afternoon, so glad I'm done with it. But interestingly I got to know from the an author who says that those technique I'd learnt from xxx software, I should keep it a secret, so that every1 in office will think I'm a genius! Yea I think so too. I din learnt it overnight - it's by trial and error over that YEAR. It can't be a spoon feeding world.
Decided to pay another vet visit tmr. Yeah, my niki can't get "excite" mode,
cos the next thing he will just "collapsed" and slowly get up. It happened 3x in past 4 days - kinda worrying if his heart condition had worsen. Last month his health was quite good...even the vet was surprised. Alas, this month everything seems downhill. The last time he went to the vet was just two weeks ago. Before I know of his condition, kinda quite strict with him. And i admit that i cane him b4 when he anyhow pee or do smthing wrong. But at same time quite dote him. After knowing how bad his heart was, I feel quite shocked as he was still active - running ard and only get restless rarely. But now, after all the medication and everything, he seems to weakened. Trying to give him lots of love and care for the past 2 years with us. I really wondered what was his life before he meet us. Tried taking a pic of him ydae wif my hp. But he seems to know it - my hp no flash leh (I must had scared him with my digicam last time). He'll refused to cooperate and tries to hide his face away. Let's hope he fight on for his life.
3 small letters
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
S A D - everything is sad around me.
Dog is not well - I'm sad. Mood is foul - I'm sad. Job is a question mark - I'm sad. Money is not enuff - I'm sad. Disaster again - I'm sad. Sleep is not enuff - I'm sad. Din tio 4d - I'm sad. Stalker looming - I'm sad. Being not understood - I'm sad.
It's a SAD world when you are sad. Nothing goes right, and it seems infinity.
Da Ming CAUGHT!!!
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Great news...after a month of "torture"...its is finally caught! It was chased outta house 2 weeks ago, but was spotted lingering outside by sister. Dad found a cage and setup the trap outside. Wooopie, it fell into the trap - chicken meat the bait. I din witness the catch, and I'm glad I wasn't around. Sis did took a picture, and it's that SAME fella I saw..Oh how much it had grown! Damm, should have kept him for a day and call the housing board to come and see for themselves!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, saw "Jus My Luck" this noonz, kinda nice to catch since "Pirates" are fast selling out. Just make me wondered on tis earth is there such a person tt is so lucky and another so tt unlucky and they cross-ed path :? Mabbe ... mabbe...
My Mei is 2X years old
Monday, July 10, 2006
Today is my mei's bdae. I almost forgotten it. Luckily it was in my y!calender and quickly sent my greetings. And she replied to my sms tt she's on leave due to world cup (not bdae?!).
My colleague from China asked me if today's a holiday here as not much pple online. I have to xplain to her - every1 had a FEVER last night! :D including myself, super zombified now. I marched my way home and landed myself swiftly back, trying not to knock myself against any pillar/human/stones.
Rewind to earlier the day - I had to take a cab to work. Yeah Comfort Cab 1st day raise fare.. Yeah so comfortable..that it cost me 13 buck with all the jams. Before raise, maybe 11 the most? Sigh, I promise to WAKE EARLY :D
Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Fairy Mei!!!
Unique Date
Friday, July 07, 2006
Did not realise it until....a few hours ago...today's date 7.7.06 - quite a unique date for me - in short it's 776 - U won't get this in another lifetime. My poly gang (arielmist & kit, wee & stu, ec & ch, kel & gin) including myself - all the couples are 76/77...Tsk Tsk..except now waiting for ahma to get hitch leh!!!
So what DiD I do on this UNIQUE DAY - I went into the pools again...and swam 300metre (I think?)..at least 2 more laps than Tuesday. Kinda happy I finally exercise!!! Need to keep those sick bugs away. I jst saw LEAVE Report. I'm the high hitter on MC days...till date, i took 7 days MC. Yea...it was horrible. So my only hope now is to stay healthy :D
Youthful Day
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Phunk asked me today if i celebrate youthday yesterday..No..that's not the reason I took half a day off. I din even realised even i had read some youthday post on spin blog. How strange. How come I din realised it. I'm not youthful anymore?!? But i spent the day with little kids! Had lunch with ec and arielmist...then off to see arielmist bb...and saw her niece n nephew..all like almost 3 decades younger than me! wahha...then M was entertained by her nottie terror niece...that's not all...he was later entertained by my terror god dotty.... wahaha... kids are always so loveable..adorable...and TERRoR-able!!!
..."recovered"...
Monday, July 03, 2006
我躺在这里 昏睡 到底 过多久
被关在白色的 宇宙
忘了 那是谁的手
曾在我额头 遗留过 温柔
只记得 不断 颤抖
闭上眼还有 回忆 闷锁在 胸口
连呼吸都难以 承受
忽然发现 你的手
能给我 熟悉的温柔
原来 这份感动 才是我 所梦昧以求
怀着 昨日那些伤口
遇见了 你
是你让我 活的意义 拥有了生机
当所拥 虚荣 都变空虚
是你用 爱 医好我的内心
病开始 慢慢痊愈
怀着昨日那些 伤口
遇见了 你
是你让我 提醒自己 分秒要 珍惜
前面的风景 还不 确定
可是 爱 你让我重获生命
病终于 终于痊愈
痊愈
:: Dedicated to U =) ::
JJ's Concert
Sunday, July 02, 2006
It was just last week I went JJ's concert. I din had time to sit down and write about it. Anyway, there's a good writeup in regards to his concert on his own blog!!! Mabbe if I hv time, good mood, sip tea, and write about it. By now, JJ had finished his Msia concert...3rd on his list! Yippee!!!
But I have to say, I had a fantastic time...with M around me... a day I will nv forget..24.6.2006!
I'd made plans to go somewhere today...planned one month ago...almost? It was all sunny and I prepared lunch for M and me. Jus as I finished my cooking, sky dark dark - and it started to rain at 1:30...from a small drizzle to a real heavy rain. Guess, niki is hungry le. I finished my food, and prepared his stuff. I tink he wants us to be home, to accompany his soul. So all plans are cancel. And i napped as the rain continue to be around.
:: wag wag tail ::
